31st March 2014

this morning i went to my pregnancy check up.
Alhamdulillah.
semuanya okay.
baby sihat, mommy terlebih sihat.
cuma tekanan darah mommy masih rendah tapi tidak ditahap bahaya.
so, no worries.

mommy jumpa doctor.
doc scan baby.
KENAPA BABY KEPIT KAKI HAAA?
mommy tak nampak jantina baby tau.
geramnyeeee. jangan surprise mommy pls syg.
mommy nak tau sangat.
pls pls pls.
let me know.
baby jangan la menyorok or kepit kaki lagi lepas ni tau.
mommy rotan nanti!
hehehehe.
mommy rotan tipu2 je.
mommy gerammmmm!
mommy tak sabar nak tunggu baby lahir.
semoga anak mommy sihat sampai lahir nanti.
i love you my baby.

28th March 2014

haih. im sorry my baby.
mommy terlalu busy sampai tak sempat nak tulis untuk baby.
okay. hari ni mommy dah free. :)

last monday, daddy dah contact mommy.
right after mommy tulis untuk baby.
i was so happy.
alhamdulillah.
akhirnya doa mommy tuhan makbulkan.
demi anak mommy.
tapi, mommy masih fobia dan trauma.
mommy takut sangat benda yang sama akan jadi lagi.
mommy selalu kena bersedia kalau2 daddy akan tinggalkan mommy.

tapi mommy harap tak lah.
mommy harap daddy akan bersama kita sampai bila2.
i love daddy and baby.
dua2 cinta hati mommy sampai mati.

mmmuuuaahhhhh!

24th March 2014

mommy masih tunggu daddy call mommy.

mommy tak tau samada semua tu sia-sia.
atau akan beroleh sesuatu yang mommy tak sangka.
sekarang mommy tunggu. dan terus tunggu.
sampai bila, mommy tak tahu.

mommy happy setiap kali mommy rasa baby bergerak dalam perut mommy.
mommy tau baby sihat.
mommy tau kewujudan baby dalam perut mommy.
mommy excited.
syukur alhamdulillah.
kalau lah mommy boleh share dengan daddy, bahagianya mommy.

and one more thing, mommy dah start produce susu.
susu untuk baby.
so mommy harap mommy boleh produce susu untuk baby dalam jangkamasa yang lama.
mommy sayang anak mommy.

:)

21st March 2014

You're 5 months and 3 days (21 weeks and 3 days).

You're half way there to meet mommy and daddy. :)
I love you so much baby.

hari ni mommy banyak kerja sangat.
pagi-pagi lagi mommy dah berkejar sana sini.
mommy still tunggu daddy.
macam biasa lah.
mommy akan tunggu daddy.
hari ni baby banyak bergerak.
mommy rasa happy.

mommy happy sebab ada baby.
sekurang-kurangnya mommy takkan lupa daddy sampai bila2.
mommy + baby = daddy :)
daddy + mommy + baby = happy family :)
apa jadi sekali pun, kita saling melengkapi.
semoga satu hari nanti, keluarga kita lengkap selengkapnya.
mommy sayang anak mommy. anak2 daddy yang lain pun mommy sayang.
semua dah macam anak mommy.
mommy tak sabar nak jumpa baby comel mommy. :)

20th March 2014

hari ni mommy tak dapat rasa baby gerak2 dalam perut mommy.
kenapa sayang mommy?
baby merajuk ke?
baby gerak2 la. jangan buat mommy risau.
hari ni kita makan sedap sikit ye.
mommy lapar.
ke baby lapar susu? nanti kita beli susu ye sayang.
mommy pergi sendiri beli susu untuk mommy n baby.
i love you so much baby mommy.

dan mommy masih merindui daddy.
masih mengharap daddy pulang. :')

19th March 2014

Sometimes, mommy rasa mommy nak give up.
walaupun mommy sayang dan cintakan daddy.
terlalu sayang. terlalu cinta.
mommy sanggup buat apa saja demi daddy.
tapi bila daddy buat mommy macam tak wujud.
mommy mula rasa yang daddy tak sayangkan mommy.
setelah sebulan, mommy pulak rasa nak buat keputusan.
mommy buat keputusan untuk berpisah dengan daddy.

:'(

Mommy rasa macam terpaksa buat keputusan macam tu.
sebab mommy lagi takut daddy yang buat keputusan untuk tinggalkan mommy.
jadi, biar mommy yang buat keputusan.
supaya mommy tak rasa dia yang tinggalkan mommy.
because i love him really much.
i miss everything about your daddy.
tapi mommy masih doa.
supaya daddy tak setuju dan benci dengan keputusan mommy.
mommy masih berharap agar daddy balik.
balik dan bahagiakan kita berdua.
baby dan mommy.
supaya kita dapat kasih sayang sama rata.
atau lebih tepat, ADIL.

mommy terlalu sayang dan cintakan daddy.
sampai akhir hayat mommy.
cinta akhir mommy.
kalau takde dia, biar mommy takde sesiapa.
biar mommy hidup dengan baby.
sahaja.

18th March 2014

Mommy ada kursus hari ni.
Kursus kewangan.
Mommy dapat call yang loan mommy dah approve.
Alhamdulillah.
Mommy mintak tolong mama Anne sms daddy.
Mommy nak mintak tolong daddy pergi buat stamping.
Mommy tengok daddy switched on handphone dia.
Tapi daddy still tak call mommy.
Last2, daddy off balik handphone dia.
Mommy tak tau kenapa dia on handphone.
Tapi tak call mommy.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

17th March 2014

Hari ni mommy rasa dah sebulan daddy menghilang kan diri.
Mommy have to find him.
Mommy terpaksa cari dia.
Mommy call dia tak nak cakap dengan mommy.
Mommy mintak mama Anne tolong.
Mama Anne tolong panggil daddy.
Mommy hampir jumpa daddy.
Tapi Allah belum lagi bagi mommy jumpa daddy.
Mommy redha...

13th March 2014

Until today, daddy haven't call mommy.
The last time mommy jumpa daddy is on Valentine's Day.
The last time mommy dengar suara daddy is on Tuesday, 18th Feb.
Lepas tu daddy langsung tak call mommy.
Mommy call tak dapat.
Mommy text dia tak reply.
Sometimes mommy tak tau nak buat apa.
It has been more than 3 weeks now.
Mommy kuat sebab baby.
Mommy terpaksa jadi kuat sebab anak mommy.
Mommy dah janji dengan daddy, mommy akan jaga baby baik2.
So mommy bagi time kat dia.
He must be so miserable now.
Kita sama2 doa supaya daddy balik.
We miss him so much right?
I know that daddy miss us really much too.
It is just.... maybe he needs some time to think.


:'(

18th February 2014

Today daddy lain macam.
Dia jadi grumpy sangat.
Last daddy text mommy dalam 930am.
Then takde reply.
Mommy tunggu sampai after lunch.
Baru daddy call mommy.
Daddy cakap dia tidur.
So, it's okay. Mommy tau dia tak sihat.
Lepas tu daddy cakap lagi dengan mommy, dia sakit kepala.
Mommy kesian sangat dengan daddy.
Hari2 mengadu sakit kepala.
Tapi mommy cannot help him even a bit.
Sebab daddy jauh dengan mommy.
Mommy sedih.
Lepas tu daddy tak reply.
Takpe la. Maybe daddy needs some rest.

17th February 2014

Hari ni mommy asyik merajuk je dengan daddy.

Kesian daddy melayan kerenah mommy.

But i did say sorry to him.

I was so thankful because daddy faham keadaan mommy.

Mommy ikut officemates pergi melawat orang sakit.

Daddy kasi mommy pergi.

Mommy texted with daddy.

Mommy cakap dengan daddy, if anything happy to me and you, would he still be there for us?

He told me, "yes. sebab daddy sayang baby n mommy"

Yea. Mommy rindu daddy. Mommy susah bila daddy takde selalu dengan mommy.

Sebab tu mommy asyik merajuk je.

So, after lunch mommy balik office.

And daddy pun still tak sihat.

Daddy kena 'morning sickness' mommy.

Hehehe.

Kesian sangat tengok daddy tau!

14th February 2014

So it was Valentine's Day.
Macam biasa, mommy belum pernah gagal wish kat daddy.
Because i love him so much.
I tell him everyday.
So, malam tu daddy bawak mommy pergi jumpa kawan.
Tau dekat mana?
Dekat Dataran Senawang.
That was the very first place, where daddy brought mommy to our very first date!
Mommy was soooo happy.
Walaupun daddy tak berapa sihat, dia still bawak mommy jalan2.
He asked me if i want to eat anything that i want!
Tapi i was full, and ajak daddy jalan2 je.
That was a very happy night for us. :)

8th February 2014

So daddy asked me i if want to follow him balik Pilah ke tak?
Ofcourse lah mommy nak.
Mommy selalu amik peluang untuk bersama daddy.
So we went back to Pilah with Abg Aiman.
It was very sunny day. Panas sangat.
Nasib baik mommy ni kuat.
Yeah, sekuat mommy bawak baby pergi jungle trekking masa tu baby baru nak masuk 2 months.
Which was, mommy tak tau pun mommy pregnant. HEEE!
So, after hantar Abg Aiman balik rumah nenek, we return back to Putrajaya.
On our way back, daddy nampak BURUNG PUYUH!
Then daddy stopped to buy me burung puyuh.
That was one thing yg mommy NAK sangat makan masa mommy mula2 pregnant.
Huhu. HAPPY! :)
Daddy bawak mommy pergi lepak2 kat Ulu Bendul.
Sure one day bila baby dah besar, daddy bawak awak pergi.
Lepas tu kita balik.
Malam tu daddy makan kat rumah. Mommy masakkan maggi favourite daddy.
Daddy suka sangat la apa lagi. Mommy pulak makan burung puyuh yang beli kat kampung tu.
Huhuhuhu.
That was a very great day for me and daddy. :)

4th February 2014

I went to the clinic. Just to had my check up on why i dont have my period for 3 months.
So, lepas doctor check mommy, dia bagitau something.
She said, "look! ada baby!"
I looked at the screen. With my tears came out.
Happy tears.
I went back to the office.
Waiting for your daddy. Cant wait to tell him.
Daddy was happy. He bought me maternity milk. For you and me.